100 things

1. I will never give up the quest to become a mother
   
2. I am still afraid of the dark
   
3. I am constantly fighting off depression
   
4. I believe that only 4 people in the world truly love me
   
5. I feel so lucky that I have a whole 4 people who love me
   
6. When sick or in pain I still want my mother
   
7. My husband really is my best friend
   
8. I hate my body
   
9. I am angry that my body betrayed me
   
10. I am sick of surviving my life
    
11. I am trying to just be happy in the moment
    
12. I feel guilty that I have so much and still want more
    
13. I have a learning disability
    
14. It has taken me almost 17 years to finish college
    
15. I feel like an amalgamation of disabilities and disorders
    
16. I have never felt "good enough"
    
17. I still hate my 4^th grade teacher
    
18. I have only lived alone for two weeks of my life
    
19. I am terrified of being alone
    
20. I try very hard to keep everyone in my life happy
    
21. I am afraid of getting yelled at
    
22. I do not know how to argue
    
23. I hate stereotypes
    
24. I try to treat everyone as an individual
    
25. There are books I still have not read because I was assigned them in school
    
26. I am afraid that one day someone if going to discover that I am just winging this
    
27. I really love my 1000 thread count sheets, even though they are snobby
    
28. I am terrified of rodents
    
29. I hate shaving my legs
    
30. Christmas is my favorite holiday
    
31. I am adopted
    
32. I am fatter now than I have ever been in my life
    
33. I sent myself to Weight Loss Camp when I was 12
    
34. I had an imaginary friend named Fruity
    
35. My fears stand in my way more than I want to admit
    
36. I want to skydive
    
37. I love my camera
    
38. Taking the photographs helps keep me separate from situations that make me nervous
    
39. I am not sure who I really am
    
40. I miss my nose ring
    
41. Daisies are my favorite flower
    
42. I read to put myself to sleep
    
43. I had the first cavity of my life filled today
    
44. I took my braces off with a spoon when I was 16
    
45. I miss my Beetle
    
46. I do not feel safe in the dark until my back is on the bed
    
47. #46 started because of The Brady Bunch episode about Jesse James
    
48. The shower scene from Psycho still scares me even though the last time I saw it I was 5
    
49. My favorite TV show as a kid was Little House on the Prairie
    
50. I often feeling intellectually inferior
    
51. I hate being scared
    
52. I do not understand why people like horror movies
    
53. It still amazes me that my husband married me
    
54. I am addicted to toiletries
    
55. I get nervous when I am down to my last 3 bottles of shampoo, conditioner, etc.
    
56. I gave up cigarettes
    
57. I love Diet Dr. Pepper
    
58. I do not drink alcohol
    
59. I have a scar over my right eyebrow from an accident at my 2^nd grade back to school party
    
60. I had a pony named Scout when I was a kid
    
61. My first intercontinental trip was to Kenya
    
62. I love to swim
    
63. I learned to scuba dive when I was 12
    
64. I went to boarding school when I was 13
    
65. I have taken two cross country trips in a van full of other teens
    
66. I got my high school biology credit in the Florida Keys
    
67. My favorite place that I have lived is Oregon
    
68. I have lived in 6 states
    
69. I have been to 7 different colleges
    
70. I hate moving
    
71. I have never climbed a tree
    
72. I have a turtle collection
    
73. I do not like Sushi
    
74. I can kill plants just by looking at them
    
75. I got my first driver's license when I was 19
    
76. I had my first e-mail address in 1995
    
77. I still wish on shooting stars
    
78. I got my ears pierced when I was 2
    
79. I have 2 cats and wish I had a dog
    
80. My nana served me breakfast in bed every Saturday morning of my childhood
    
81. I am named after my maternal grandparents
    
82. My parents video taped most of my childhood and I love them for it
    
83. I was a very lonely child
    
84. My eyes look like snake skins
    
85. I used to cry very easily
    
86. Sometimes I worry I do not cry enough anymore
    
87. I never look in other people's medicine cabinets
    
88. Some day I want to live in an Earthship
    
89. My own medical issues do not scare me as much as they should
    
90. I love shoes, but only wear 1 pair the majority of the time
    
91. There are way too many people I miss
    
92. It is easy to make me laugh
    
93. It is hard to make me mad
    
94. I got my first stretch mark when I was 10
    
95. My middle toe is the smallest toe on my foot
    
96. I have always wanted to learn to blow glass
    
97. I wish I was artistic
    
98. I never went to public school
    
99. I love roller coasters
    

I still believe that my wishes will come true