Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Symbiosis

Eight years ago today, under an overcast sky with a smattering of raindrops, I married the love of my life. We did not get to that day easily, our relationship evolved out of a lot of stops and starts. Stops that were so painful I was sure that I was going to die and starts that were so amazingly high that I never wanted them to end even though I was always waiting for the fall. Yes, we have a bi-polar relationship. When I was seventeen my therapist said that our relationship was symbiotic, and she was right but it works for us. We are better together than we are apart. Together we are invincible we may stumble and fall but we do so together. Our relationship is insular, no hurt is so deep that our little sphere cannot protect or heal. I love this relationship just as it is with all the dents and faults, with all the shininess worn off, and with all the other things that outsiders think is wrong, it suits me.
When I was seventeen he was just my best friend, he was the one who I needed to make my life better, and more importantly he one of two people that made a horrific time in my life tolerable. Something beautiful and tragic happens when a relationship is formed in a dark time in both the people’s life, and being able to maintain and grow that relationship outside that space is frightening at times. Knowing just how far the love of your life is capable of falling is scary and comforting at the same time, and it lets you know just how far they are capable of flying.
I am a better person because of him. I have taken risks I never would have dreamed of because I knew he was standing beside me. For seventeen years I have loved him, and still to this day I catch a glimpse of him out of the corner of my eye and he takes my breath away. What I did to deserve this amazing man in my life, I will never know, but I am all too aware of just how lucky I am to have this amazing love in my life. A love that has given me more than I could ever return. Honey, I love you more than these simple words could ever express.










12 comments:

Beautiful Mess said...

Happy anniversary sweetie! I love the photos of your wedding. You both look AMAZING! Here's to many many more years together!
*HUGS*

Cyn said...

Aww! Happy Anniversary!! Love the pics-you look beautiful and SO happy!

emilythehopeless said...

awww!!! happpy anniversary!! :D
there is nothing better than marrying your best friend!

Just Caz said...

Those pictures are so sweet, almost as sweet as your beautiful words.
congratulations!!

Kristin said...

Happy Anniversary!

Niki said...

Happy Anniversary! I love the pics of you and your dh! I have to tell you that describing your relationship as symbiotic is interesting and beautiful. When I teach my students about symbiosis I explain it as a more or less permanent (long-term) relationship between two species. Among the types of symbiosis is something called mutualism where both species receive a benefit from the relationship. I call it a +/+ to help the students remember it. It sounds like you and your husband have a mutalistic symbiotic relationship and will be together forever working together to provide each other with what you need. Best wishes to you! :)

Meg. said...

What a beautiful tribute to your marriage!

You both look so happy and full of spunk, love and life in your photos.

Keep holding on to each other, and you can weather your way through the toughest storms.

Happy Anniversary!

Mugsy said...

Happy Anniversary!

FET Accompli said...

What a beautifully written post.

I especially loved the first line when you say:
"Eight years ago today, under an overcast sky with a smattering of raindrops, I married the love of my life."

I also liked:

"Something beautiful and tragic happens when a relationship is formed in a dark time..."

Such an incredible, deep relationship.

Happy Anniversary!

Shell said...

Happy Happy Anniversary

Allison said...

Happy Anniversary a couple days late. I've been behind on my blog reading. I love the way you word things. Your pictures are so cute, you guys look truly happy. Hope you have many more happy years Jaymee. HUGS

MyLifeMyWorld-SharingADream said...

Sorry I missed this post, just catching up....wanted to wish you a Happy Belated Anniversary. Hope you both had a great time together.

I just love your post, so beautifully written. :)