Tuesday, May 12, 2009

A Whirlwind

I have been super busy and there is no slowing down in sight.

The husband and I went to Denver last Thursday to see The Dead, it was an amazing show and a wonderful graduation gift. This will hopefully be our last show without a baby, yes we plan on taking the baby if we ever get the chance. I think that it is important for children to have these experiences, and let's face it these great bands are not going to be around forever. It was also just nice to get away and have a couple of days without worrying about the surrogacy and genetics. Sometimes the best thing to do is just to take a small mental break.

I graduated with a B.S. in Psychology and a B.S. in Social Work on Saturday!!!! College has been a huge struggle for me, like most things in my life. I was diagnosed with a learning disability in the fourth grade, so graduating from college is something that I did not always believe would be possible for me. I am not used to completing things in my life, most of the time when things get really hard I run. I ran a lot from college, which is why it took me 16 years to finish. I finally feel like things in my life are really coming together. As much as that scares me to death it also feels wonderful. The most wonderful part is that I did not wake up on Sunday morning feeling like some kind of adult, I just woke up and felt like there was one less thing on my plate.

At the end of this week we are going to visit Sabrina and her family!!!! Part of me is super excited. Another part of me is really scared, not because of anything anyone has done, but because until now I have been able to live a bit disconnected from this whole experience. It is safe hanging on the edges of the orbit, and I am comfortable here. I am so excited to get started, but I am also scared that these steps ahead of us are not stable and could be masking a lot of heartache and pain. I know that focusing on this part is not going to so me any good, but I am a prepare for the worst and be happy when the best happens.

I really am excited about finally being able to sit across from Sabrina and meet her family. I know that whatever the future brings that I will be able to handle the situation. The streangth that I have and my amazing support system ensures that there is nothing that I cannot survive.


Soralis said...

Congrats on finishing your degree! What a wonderful accomplishment!

Good luck with your meeting!

Wishing you all the best!

p.s. happy belated one year anniversary!

Beautiful Mess said...

Congrats on finishing school! That must feel GREAT! Enjoy your meeting with Sabrina. I'm sure it'll all go well.

Cyn said...

Congrats to you!! To stick with it for 16 years is a huge accomplishment!

How exciting that you get to meet Sabrina finally! I'm sure it will be wonderful!!

Rachael said...

Congratulations and have fun! I imagine the meeting with Sabrina and fam will be lots of fun, and laughter : )

Kristin said...

Congrats on finishing your degree.

Have a wonderful time with Sabrina.

emilythehopeless said...

HOORAY!! congratulations!!!
ohmygod! soooo exciting about seeing Sabrina! :)

(and me soon too!!)

MyLifeMyWorld-SharingADream said...

That is awesome news! You worked very hard to complete it and deserve some wavy hands and huge congrats!!!

Think of your "meeting" with Sabrina as a visit, it will help ease your mind...have fun, be yourself.

Have a great visit together.

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dawn said...

congratulations on graduation! :) what a great accomplishment!
good luck w/your meeting! sooo excited for you! <3